2012 23 Nov

The following songs were recorded mostly in Pasadena, California from 2010 – early 2012 on my Tascam 8-track machine.


1 2:14 122 listens
2 3:06 93 listens
3 2:25 82 listens
4 4:56 89 listens
5 4:32 98 listens
6 2:24 82 listens
7 3:03 112 listens
8 4:00 99 listens
9 2:10 118 listens
10 2:37 117 listens
Published under Musicsend this post
2010 21 Oct

It took me 7 years to get back to Los Angeles. I felt robbed how I left so abruptly. Literally, I was robbed. And so I am back. Maybe more this time for closure and to take up where I left off but in a different direction. Back in 1999-2003, I was actively pursuing music. I was in a few groups around town and the scene was fantastic. The Beachwood Sparks, the Brian Jonestown Massacre, the Quarter After, the Tyde, Wiskey Biscuit, the Warlocks, smallstone, the Belle Isle, the Snakes. I was there and the scene still influences me today.

I found these lyrics that I wrote on January 15, 2002. I remember recording a song to the lyrics but I don’t know where the tapes are. It’s probably in storage somewhere. But here it is:

Just wanna be right.
Just wanna be fine.
Something will come in time.
Getting there is not so easy.

Just wanna move weight.
Just wanna stand straight.
Something will give to flight.
Getting there is not so easy.

Just wanna break through.
Just wanna be free.
Something will give to might.
Getting there is not so easy.

Just wanna be real.
Just wanna have sight.
Something will show real bright.
Getting there is not so easy.

I think at the time I must have felt that I had something else to do in life but wasn’t so sure. There is so much confusion and distraction in the world sometimes.  I often told my brother over the phone that I felt like I was just twisting in the wind in L.A.  I had made a go of it.  It was a little over a year after I wrote this song that my world was turned upside down. You can read about what happened here: Run Out of Town

A lot has happened since January 2002. I went back to Texas, worked there for while, lived with my grandparents taking care of them. This was a bit hellish at times. I put my life on hold for a few years. Then I applied to the Peace Corps. I was accepted and went overseas for 2 1/2 years in Bulgaria. I met my wife there.   She is still there.  Damn, Homeland Security.

I’ve put out 5 albums on the internet for free, been interviewed live on the Bulgarian Radio and more things.  And I’ve kept up with writing and recording my music.  It is a new age in music.  In 2003, it was starting to happen with putting online music out but now it is booming and I’m not talking about illegal pirated music. The point is, there is no excuse why your music shouldn’t be heard.  Do-it-yourself all the way.  No need to wait on record companies or anyone like that.  Just do it.  I also lived in Portland, Oregon for about six months but I couldn’t hang with the rain.

In 2010, I got married and came back to California and now I am attending the Fuller Theological Seminary Theology and Arts program. So you can see, I still have strong beliefs that music and the Arts can make the world a better place. In 2003, I almost thought that my music was over and that I was down and out for good.  Not so.  I’m a bit more grounded this time but still have the California Dreamin’ vibe.

So please, if you are reading this and think you are down and out, you are not.  It is just a season.

Ecclesiastes 3

Published under Lifesend this post